Your reactions to Heath Ledgers death

My reaction to Mr. Ledger’s death came in phases. I as usual was at work and got a call from my significant other. Simple question was asked. You know that guy who’s supposed to play the joker in batman? I of course immediatly knew. My knowledge of the celebrity world knows no bounds. I replied back that “yes I knew who he was why? he responded by bluntly stating “he’s dead. Dead silence of about 15 seconds on my end with my heart just sinking. In those fifteen seconds many thoughts and emotions went into my head. Supreme shock was one. Disbelief and horror the next. The verbal thoughts entered. I was not that much of a fan of the guy so why is my heart sinking? I only watched a few of his movies. Is it because I have been reading so much about the new batman franchise and people’s high expectations of him? like a signal from the heavens something told me to look to my right and there posted on the big screen tv of my workplace was cnn (which is hilarious considering the fact that political discussion is not allowed in the workplace yet it stays on a political channel 24/7). What I see on the screen further shocks me. The body of heath ledger being led by paramedics in a black body bag to an ambulance. I began to get angry at the sight. Such a bold image to be displayed like that without warning and to a man who I knew valued his privacy seemed not only tacky, but sacreligious in a way. Watching this scene became a morbid experience that I had to detach myself from to hear my boyfriends ramblings on how the makeup for the new joker did not look realistic in a bored voice. If there was a way to virtually slap someone through the phone I would have made heavy use of that power in that moment! How could he not feel as sad or as shocked as I do? He feels more for the friggan joker character then the man behind the character!

Throughout the day I began to analyze my feelings and I came to the conclusion of why I was sad and shocked in the first place. As I said I was never a big fan of his to begin with. The handful of films that I saw him in was brokeback mountain and the patriot. Both films I thought he did a major job in, but as a human being he seemed very soft spoken and a good person who was dedicated to his work and was on the road to big things. When I see or hear of a celebrity dying a part of me expects to not be shocked by it. Normally because the celebrities that now pass were from the older eras or who’s death’s you see coming from a mile away. How